First Post

This is the first post of my blog. I spent a few months (years?) wanting to start a blog but kept thinking I'd have to buy my own server space, then figure out how to install some kind of CMS onto it, and I kept going back and forth on what I should do, then I remembered that blogspot still exists and you can still press a few buttons and get a blog pretty easy. So that's cool. So I'm doing that now. 

I think I miss the "writing for nobody" aspect of blogging. Having used Twitter and, until recently, Mastodon for microblogging and social media, I really missed being able to write more than one thought and have it appear somewhere for more than a few seconds before disappearing forever. 

As I write this it's mid October 2020. There is a global pandemic. It's an election year. The state has failed in pretty much every way to either provide any safety net for a global pandemic in any way. I'm in a biker gang. I finally started a job after a nearly 2 year job search and over a year unemployed. I'm almost finishing a 4 year long game project. I have 3 out of 4 of my bikes running, and 1 out of my 2 cars running. 

I had spent much of August interviewing and doing code tests, much of September prepping for this job, and much of October getting ready to start, with a remaining week of doing absolutely nothing.

Today I got my ballot in the mail, and I plan on filling it out and dropping it off, probably today, so I can get it over with. I remember in 2016 awaiting the ballot, and hoping it would be the final act that would put an end to the abberation that was 2016, and then 2016 turned out to not be an abberation but a new normal. A constant slide downward in expectations and a constant escalation of anxieties. Unlike 2016 my expectations are pretty low. Perhaps like 2016 I will be streaming myself playing a videogame to ease the pain and not watch the slow motion trainwreck unfold again. 

I remember getting celebratory beer, and snacks, and how It Was All Going To Be Over and it turned out to be Just The Beginning. 

Living in Washington state my vote, in terms of the Electoral College, doesn't really "count" much like when I lived in Kansas my vote didn't count, but for other reasons. I voted for Hillary in 2016 less to get her elected but more to "run up the score" as it were, which was justification in and of itself, rather than any sort of policy. Her platform, much like Biden's, is "Not trump" which wasn't good enough then and might not be good enough now. About 300k people across 3 states decided the fate of the world, so we're really just along for the ride. 

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